Oceans
suck. Oceans topple. Wild and uncomprehending and stupid and carefree as we are
in our youth we do not think about the ocean as we plunge through its waves,
line after line of the bruisers, salt in our eyes and foam up our noses, in the
summertime of every happiness and little of lastingness. As we drip through the
shallows toward another sheer clearness that may rush us through escalating seconds
of cruise or dump us in a storm of sand and back current, we never think of the
intricate capillaries almost infinite under the skin, the sunshine drying off
the sea film from shoulders in a minute, the otherworld of science fiction
action only fifty yards further out beneath the blue top. And it, swirly ocean,
not a day older or younger. Gentle beings so rough and blithe and independent
of the world, who splash into that turbulent form as if it were toyland, who
rinse the past out in a trice, we were innocent and lovely and fed. But what
might be the moment when we will yearn for gentleness we always had, be found dependent
on the world back at the shoreline, where we look now with our goggles on?
Knowingly, we are not drawn further out into that bluer depth, are stopped by
the excuse of pleasure, by adult words of warning long since noted in electron
and muscle, and held firm by that other mass, the great multihued airy fixture,
that standout freewheeling bodily entity of safety, that stern containment
called land. The years, talkative as per usual, teach us the truisms of a blue
planet. Oceans confuse. Oceans ruin. When not a sight of recurrent wonder,
their shapes can be some great tedium, like the year at the end of a failed
marriage, the movie where the genius director lost the plot, the dormant
doldrums that once roused therapy cannot shake off. The swell is building up now
to troughs, so what. The day will be as flat as you could hope for, so what.
The ripple on that crest could have been a dolphin, so what. We
might for now like to turn away from all that horizon, stop guessing the name
of every passing vessel, take refuge in the happily multiplying possibilities
of a room. Had we but thought, in a previous century, with the wisdom of
foresight, every day we were having a conversation with the blue that,
heatedly, belatedly forsooth, has found a way of getting out of hand. Oceans
rise. Oceans expand. Gentle beings so attentive and technological, who read of
tidal storms and drowning islands on handheld screens, who cannot connect in
our highly evolved minds the words melting and icecap, discover for the first
time in some time the logic of record temperatures and colossal inundations. Being
talked back to takes some time, quite a time, to adjust to, staring at the
ground for the words to say. Words that are feeble apologies directed at most
of the world’s water, bewildered poetry in postmodern windspray manner, stunned
blurts at breaking news, even though today is fine, winds light and variable, a
perfect day for yachting or peering into rockpools and any amount of talking in
our own tongue.